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Usually, we hurt the people we love the most. When we seek to make amends we are clearing our side of the street, and accepting the role we played in forming the resentment, guilt, embarrassment or shame we feel for the things we have done to others. It doesn't always go smoothly. Especially not when you've done terrible things. When you have hurt someone you love deeply it can be hard to accept that they may not want you in their lives anymore. It is understandable that they move on, but there are types of loves in my life that I have not been able to let go, while others seem to fade away so easily over time and distance. There are many types of fear and some, like the fear that keeps you from stepping off the curb without looking both ways, are healthy. That being said, I believe most fears are what keep us imprisoned in our comfort zones, not taking chances and repeating the same negative behaviors that separate us from happiness. I am afraid to love someone that I have hurt, or that has hurt me, the same way I am afraid to play a show without being drunk or high. I've never faced it before. I've always run from that fear. Places like Anderson Prairie Park, a 25 acre wildlife park that features remnants of the original Tall Grass Prairie of Illinois (which is also the last place I shot dope), serve as a reminder that my fears can be irrational. I still feel a strong connection to the Earth when I'm there. I love the prairie, but now I get to appreciate and enjoy it in a way I never have before. The love I fear giving someone whom I've hurt, or been hurt by, once given, could be the most satisfying and beautiful experience I was afraid to have. I will take that chance, and probably regret the time I wasted making up my mind to do it. For better or worse, we usually do end up waiting for the things that are worth waiting for.
Je te aime. Je te ai toujours aimé. Je vous aimerai toujours.
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Five years ago I was surely in a hurry. I was in a rush to throw her baby away. To her face I always lied just to hide my sick pride, and I practiced all the right things to say. I took the Amtrak line down 'New Orleans 59' I had cheap vodka and some time to think. My stop's the only home that I've ever known, and I'm never not alone when I drink. So I ran to the prairie, and I hid in the grass. Down an old deer trail I forgot my past. Then I followed the creek bed by the light of the moon. It twists and turns and leads straight to you. I swear that I've been here. I've been here before. So I tried to wait for something worth waiting for. It was all butterflies and blood in your hair. It was the opposite of car repair. I was working overtime just to keep us behind, and working even harder to pretend not to care. I had the soul of beer can and the mind of a dead man. The point of a needle and not the spark in your eye. I wished I could stay, but I just had to get away. I'd been gone since the day that he died. So I ran to the prairie, and I hid in the grass. Down an old deer trail I forgot my past. Then I followed the creek bed by the light of the moon. It twists and turns and leads straight to you. I swear that I've been here. I've been here before. So I tried to wait for something worth waiting for. We can move on. We can let it go. We can move on. We can let it go. So I ran to the prairie, and I walked through the snow. A comfort from cold that I could never let go. I swear that I've been here. I've been here before. So I try to wait for something worth waiting for.
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We are an acoustic music collective from Central Illinois. Our music is often comprised of solo effort, but shaped by group expression. Music is personal and we are people.
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